I have said it before, but I am going to say it again! I HIGHLY recommend the Jesus Calling devotional if you don’t already have it. Wow, how many times it has spoken directly to me. It just is amazing. There are some days when I read it and think thats nice, and then there are some days when I feel like it is literally written for me. When I was struggling with depression and went in for counseling one of the first things they told me to do was start reading this book. I am sure it played a big role in helping me through those times, along with continuing to help and encourage me today. It is so easy to become discouraged and sometimes feel like Jesus is so far away. When I wake up every morning and read this, it just gets me off to a good start. It fills my mind with words Jesus would say to me.
Anyway, this morning was one of those, wow this one is for me. Recently I was asked what my greatest strength and weakness was. It was a quick easy answer for strengths: organization/planning and loyalty/personal best. Then on to the weakness: (first off I have WAY to many to list) but the biggest ones surprisingly are: organization/planning and loyalty/personal best! How ironic. It just really got me thinking on how funny it is that my greatest strengths are also my greatest weaknesses. Organization and planning is a strength because I get things done on time, I have a system that works for my business, and it makes things run smoother and more efficient. It is a weakness because if my plans change it is hard for me to adjust. In the past it was way worse, but since getting married I have learned to let most all of the acute changes roll off my back. Now it is more of a struggle in the sense that I plan for the future and if those plans don’t seem to be going the way I want them to, I get all anxious. I wonder why God just wont show me clearly that it is going to be ok and show me what I am supposed to do. I take it in my own hands and tend to let my trust slip. So as you can see, this mornings devotional was just what I needed. It was a great challenge for me to once again trust that God has it under control and that I need to spend less time anxiously looking into the future and more time trusting God and living in the moment. I believe that each moment is paving the path for your future and the more we worry about our future, the less we pay attention to each moment. Even if today seems so small in the big scope of life, it is important. I don’t want to look back on my life at age 90 and regret missing God gently speaking to me and guiding me because I was to busy worrying about my own plans. Of course it is not wise to throw out all future plans and just live. Instead make plans, but hold on to them loosely and let God take your hand and guide you. My favorite verse in the bible says: “For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.” Isaiah 41:13. God is always there holding your hand and guiding you, I need to learn not to run ahead of him. I want to walk beside him and hold his hand.
So whatever may be your greatest strength, is it also your greatest weakness? I challenge you to let go of whatever may cause anxiousness in your life. God is a big God and has control over everything. You can safely rest in him, no one is and exception.