I absolutely adore this picture. It will for sure be a picture I want taken. Baby has been on my brain a lot lately. It was so cool to see our little human at the sono. Just to see her tiny legs kicking, and her little hand opening and shutting, just waving at us, amazed me. I can’t believe how much this little one means to us already. Babies are such miracles.
Two verses I have been thinking a lot about lately are:
For I know the thoughts (or NIV version says plans) I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. -Jeremiah 29:11
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works… -Pslam 139:14.
As I think about this baby, I pray that we can raise her with confidence and a peace about who she is. Who God has created her to be. To be brave in what God wants her to do. To be secure in who she is. Because she is fearfully made, and God has a plan for her.
Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee…Jeremiah 1:5.
It is so amazing to think that God knew us before we were even formed. He had a plan for us, he had talents to give us, he made each one of us unique. We all have a specific purpose, and a specific make up.
As I think about my life, I realize that I have hidden that in the past. I hide behind the fear of rejection, disappointment. The feeling that I had to live the “status quo”, or had to be like ___ to be accepted. I am a people pleaser. So I began to be shaped by what others thought. It snowballed so much that at one point I am pretty sure I was living so many different peoples lives. I was not living my own. I was not secure in my identity in Christ. I felt as if my life was a bunch of pieces scattered all over.
As I began picking up those pieces, I started to see who I was in Christ. I started to see myself the way Christ sees me, not how everyone else sees me. This gave me confidence to go after the things I felt lead to do, not the things I felt I was supposed to do. And the funny thing? Life felt right. Not perfect, far from perfect. But I was at peace with it because I knew I was doing what the Lord wanted me to do. If God is on my side I am not afraid of those who aren’t.
Is there still people who don’t fully support/understand me, yes. You will never please everyone no matter how hard you try. Does it still drag me down when I don’t feel supported, of course. But I thank God that he has given me a husband who is a constant encourager and supporter. I seriously think he is the sweetest, but I may be partial 🙂 There may be some very close to you who don’t understand you. But cling to that person who does. When my feelings are hurt, I just share with Loren. He understands me. I know he always will.
I don’t always understand why I am lead through some things. But I try to find a lesson from it. One thing I have really learned from my experience is you may not know what God is calling someone to do. We may not understand it. Isn’t it so easy to form a quick view of someone because they don’t do something like you think they should? I know I am constantly convicted of this, because it is such an easy thing to slip into. We need to get to know each other. Do we sit around and talk about others, or do we set out to encourage others? We are all fearfully and wonderfully made. We are all unique. And we are all very loved by Christ.
So when I think about this little baby God has entrusted to Loren and I, I think about her unique calling. I want to encourage her to use her talents and not fear them. I want her to be brave.
I want to encourage you to be brave. Are you afraid of being who you really are? Do you sometimes feel like you are living someone else’s life? Whether it be a job, or what to do with your money, or who to socialize with, what to do with your time, etc. Do you ever feel like you should be doing something someone else is doing because they seem to have it all together? I think I can safely say that none of us has it all together. So instead of striving to be who someone else wants to you be, strive to be who God wants you to be. He has a plan for you. Each day I pray God will make me the person he wants me to be. And now I pray that God will make this tiny human inside me to be the person he wants her to be.