Tick tock, tick tock. You are counting the seconds, wondering how a second can take so long as you make one more lap around the house trying to get your baby to sleep. You wonder why the baby is even awake at 3 in the morning. I mean shouldn’t they just know that is sleeping time?!? But what do you know? Your brain kind of feels like mush anyway from the lack of sleep.
Then there is the moment when they just won’t stop crying. You begin crying with them because you just don’t know what to do. They are fed, changed, and are being held, yet they won’t stop crying! The moment seems to last forever and you wonder if this parenting thing will ever get easier.
I have been thinking a lot about time lately. Isn’t it crazy how fast time can go but at the same time how slow it can go? In a moment that seems to last forever we want it to speed up. Then as we see our kids grow in what seems like a blink of the eye, we wonder who pushed the fast forward button.
When Kina was first born everyone kept telling me it will get better around 3 months. Just hang in there! Three months seemed like an eternity! I remember when she hit one and a half months. Loren and I just looked at each other and wearily said halfway there. But it didn’t feel that great. Six measly weeks may as well have been 100 years.
But then an amazing thing happened. Time went on and all of the sudden before we knew it she was big enough to sit in her highchair! What? How did that happen? We started feeding her cereal a couple days ago and she just looks so big! I told her she can slow down on the whole growing thing now! When I really started thinking about it, I started to realize how there are some pretty hard stressful moments, but there are so many more heart warming, joyful moments. And when I think back on all those moments, thousands of seconds, they come back to me as a big glob of joy. Because moments build on each other and before you know it, the moment that seemed to take an eternity is now a distant memory. Trust me I haven’t forgotten the hours of screaming or sleepless nights. But what I have learned is that when another moment that seems to last an eternity comes, I know it will pass. And when it does, moments that are filled with joy and love will follow. The sad thing is, it seems those happy moments pass way too fast. You find yourself longing for them back.
So take heart mama, if you are in a moment that seems like it will never end. Be comforted that it will. It may not feel like it, but I know you are strong and you will get through it. Before you know it, all the millions of moments that life takes us through will add up to one big blob of joy as you watch your little one grow!