The day I became a mom my world changed.
The day before I became a mom I was filled with excitement to meet this little baby.
The day before I became a mom I was wondering just how this mom thing was going to be. What exactly do they mean it’s so hard, but so worth it?
The day before I became a mom worry and excitement filled me. I was worried about labor, I was worried about being a bad mom, I was worried about giving up freedom, I was worried about how it would change our marriage. Yet I was filled with the excitement of seeing what she looked like, I was excited to see how much we loved this little girl, to see her grow, to teach her about Jesus.
The day I became a mom changed me. I lost a part of me. I lost a part of me to care for her, to raise her, and to love her. To dedicate sleepless nights and clueless moments for this tiny human. When I became a mom such a tiny little baby took up such a huge part of my life. Such a tiny little thing caused so much joy, yet at the same time brought so many tears. The day I became a mom all my worries came true. There are many days when I feel I am a bad mom, the freedom I had before is not the same, and yes, having a baby changed our marriage.
The day I became a mom the part of me I lost was selfishness. The part of me that couldn’t comprehend how all the sleepless nights were worth it. The part of me that couldn’t understand how all the things I worried about and came true, were actually positives. That part of me was lost, and what filled it’s place was something so much better. A love and care that overflowed for this little child who demanded so much of me. A willingness, not out of necessity out of desire, to let go of my own wants to meet hers. Because the love and trust that comes from that child filled me up fuller than I ever was before. The hard nights, the sick moments, the decreased freedom, all of that doesn’t even matter because I became filled in a different way, a way so much better than I could have ever imagined.
We don’t have it easy as moms, it isn’t this fun play with your perfect kiddo’s all day kind of thing. It is a real life love that even when you are tired of wiping noses, and noses being wiped on you. When you just want to eat in peace without being asked to cut something, or get something. When you don’t want to get up in the middle of the night again, you do it anyway because you are filled with something new. Something that you can’t really comprehend before you become a mom. Something that is so much more rewarding than anything else you have ever done.
Happy Mother’s day to all you Moms. May you always know just how much you mean to your kids. May you never think you are a bad mom. May you always know just how important it is to be a mom, even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes. May you always know how appreciated you are for all you do. You are a wonderful lady, and an even better mamma.
Today is for you! Enjoy it and remember none of us mom’s are perfect. None of us have it all together. But that doesn’t matter, because in your kiddo’s eyes you are the best mom ever!
Today is also for the mama at heart. The mama who has tried to have a baby of her own. The one who has empty arms, and a place in her heart yearning for a baby. The mama who has suffered loss. Keep going lady, you aren’t forgotten about. Today is your day too.
The day before I became a mom, I didn’t really fully appreciate the meaning of mother’s day. The day I became a mom, my eyes were opened to a whole new appreciation for my mom and all the mom’s out there. It truly is an incredible gift being a mama.
So this one is for you, whether you are a soon to be mama, a new mama, a mom and grandma, or are so desperately longing to be a mom, happy mothers day to you, you are the best!