Do you ever feel like you are on a rollercoaster of emotions? One day you are on the mountain top and the next you are in the valley? Me too. I used to think I was broken. “I used to tell my husband I am sorry you married such a lunatic. Im sure I give you whiplash from my emotions.”
I am done saying sorry and you should be too. We were made this way. We were made to feel deeply. To sympathize with those who are hurting. To feel the hurts, the excitement, the worries of other people on a level that others can’t. No my friend you aren’t broken, you are beautiful.
Everyone battles against their personality. None of us are perfect and we fight against our imperfections on a daily basis. We should all be striving to do better, but we should never believe we were made wrong. You see with the bad comes the good. We can choose to get wrapped up on our crazy emotions, or we can choose to go bless someone with our personality. We can choose to be eaten by our negativity or we can choose to look at someone and tell them “I feel you, now how can I help?”.
If I never experience my intense feelings, I could never understand others to the capacity I can. Focus on the beauty in your personality because it is there. I think sensitive and deep feeling is a calling. Not all of us have it and that is ok. The insensitive person is not broken either. We are called to be who we are, nothing less nothing more. That’s not to say we don’t have things to work on, we do. It’s to say we don’t need to fix ourselves. We need to be in the self awareness business, not in the apologetic “I am sorry for my personality business”.
My deep feeler friends, don’t downplay your feelings. They are given to you to help others. Stop apologizing for them and find the meaning behind them. Stop wishing your feelings wouldn’t get hurt so easily, and start trying to be more sensitive toward others. Stop saying sorry and start asking yourself how to use these feelings to make a difference.
The sensitivity, the ups and downs, the worry of what others are thinking, it all houses beauty if we choose to find it. My friend, stop trying to fix yourself. Instead reign yourself in and pull out the beauty. To relate to others. To bless others. To act upon your calling. Go find another deep feeling friend to pour your heart out to. They will understand and you can help each other.
You are not broken, you are beautiful.